Maine-ly Amazing... (Pt. 1)



Day 1:   (September 6, 2012)

There is hardly a way to explain the beauty of this place.  I went to sleep last night to the sound of silence…. quieter than I’ve ever heard it.  Almost concave… as if the world fell into a giant sink hole specifically so I could get some rest.  I slept better than I have in a good while on an old squeaky mattress with no sheets and an 80’s model comforter.  I am in awe of this experience, thus far.   I don’t know what heaven is like, but I have come to believe that if I live a good life, love divinely, and tread lightly on this planet…. I will go to Maine when I die.

 As I have settled comfortably into an Adirondack chair here on this slightly dilapidated deck overlooking a small clearing in an otherwise dense forest of spruce trees, I am almost brought to tears by the gratitude and inspiration welling up inside of me.  It is 7am, and I hear crickets, and now and again, the faint sound of a diesel engine most likely propelling one of those beautiful little lobster boats through Penobscot bay.  The fact that everything looks old and is a tad rundown seems apropos as just yesterday while driving along US 1, I made the comment, “Maine sure has a way of making old things look so new.”  And it’s true.  This part of the United States can make you feel a little guilty for living like most humans do…. with central air-conditioning in high rise condo buildings, microwaves, designer bags, and automatic V-8 engines…. Piling dumpsters full of trash out by the curb for someone else to haul off, going to the grocery store three times a day just because we can…. wasting water... and resources…… and time….. on things that don’t matter.


The people here on Isle au Haut live their lives deliberately.  They have no choice if they want to survive, but they seem to revel in the work it takes to sustain simple daily operations in such a remote paradise, and it’s a safe bet that most of them also believe life is a journey… not a destination.   

While standing at the dock in Stonington yesterday waiting for the ferry, we met Nancy, Sue, and a few other Isle au Haut locals.  Nancy is a retired R.N. and an artist who did her best to try to find free parking for our rental car, stating unequivocally, “You kids need to spend your money on what you want to spend it on…. Not parking!”  Ha!  I love it.  And I couldn’t agree more.   Unfortunately, though we tried thoroughly to find the recommended off-street parking, our venture availed us nothing so we circled back to the dock and paid to park.   A little later, Nancy offered to loan us her kayaks during our stay….Another very kind gesture, and an offer which Sarah and I received with great privilege.   We talked about fishing and lobstering, and, of course, we talked about our dogs.  Nancy and her husband Bill have a Golden Doodle named Moxie, and legend has it that Moxie is the craziest of the island dogs.  Well, that’s what Nancy says, anyway.  I can’t help but think of our own golden retriever, Sailor, and the 5 years it took for him to quit embarrassing us everywhere we went.  Moxie’s  2 yrs. old.  This ought to be good.

                 Sue is a retired EMT, a General Store Employee, the Town Registrar, Chairman of the school board ( I should mention, there are 5 children who attend school on Isle au Haut: 4 boys and 1 girl.), and a few other things she rattled off so quickly I couldn’t keep up.   The two women were more than welcoming and went out of their way to make us comfortable.  My hair is fuscia.  No one batted an eye.   I knew immediately I was going to fall in love with this place.   





       We watched as the captain and dockhand loaded food, supplies, a new set of tires for someone’s island vehicle, some new washer blades for another, a pallet of stock for the general store, and a small stack of lumber.  Then we boarded the mail boat, found a place to sit amongst the inventory, and settled in for what would turn out to be one of the most majestic boat rides I’ve experienced to date….  And I’ve been on a few boat rides.   

As we shoved off the dock at Stonington, Sue enthusiastically beckoned, “Look!  A seal!”  And sure enough, off the port side stern, there emerged a tiny, round head, followed by the arc of a shiny rubber body, then the gentle splash of lazy tail flippers….  Frolicking in and out of the gauntlet of lobster buoys and moorings as if they were its own personal playground.  Then as quickly as the seal appeared, it disappeared. 

As we crossed the bay, our captain also navigated the tiny spans between the littering of lobster buoys; brightly colored and creatively incomparable to one another.  Along the way, we saw things our eyes had never before beheld.  These are the moments which remind us just how alive we really are.  This is why traveling to places we’ve never been is so essential to our souls.  My imagination runs wild with images of the first settlers, the first lighthouse keepers, the first lobster boat captains, and the first homes atop granite cliffs.  Back then, life was nothing if not deliberate .  These things were not a luxury but a necessity, and it’s always so romantic to me to imagine the centuries old footsteps I’m standing in.  I truly am in love with so many people I’ve never met. 

 As we entered the thoroughfare to Isle au Haut, Nancy and Sue assumed tour guide status.  Nancy, with enthusiasm which seemed to spring only from a place of deep gratitude, revealed her amazing house atop the lush green landscape rising from the water’s edge like a tidal wave of vegetation.  Sue kept us informed as we passed the church and the general store, and proudly pointed out her husband when we arrived at the Town Landing.   As we approached the dock, Nancy showed Sarah and me her boat,  which was moored in the middle of the thoroughfare waiting patiently for her captain and whomever else may want to enjoy her.  Our hearts were full as we stepped from the gently rocking boat onto the soft sway of the floating dock, and ultimately… upon this fantastic piece of God’s real estate.   

As we disembarked and dragged our supplies and luggage up the ramp toward the main dock, there were people everywhere. The surface of the ramp was made of a tightly corrugated aluminum which made a noise like a single-engine airplane as we pulled our rolling suitcases across it.  It felt about as offensive as a curse word in church.   As I approached the top, I had an urge to announce, “We’re here!  The party can start!”  It is written that there are only about 50 year round residents on Isle au Haut, and I’m pretty sure most of the them were at the dock this day waiting for the mail boat.    As we stepped onto the town landing, I realized we had no idea who we were looking for.  As is typically the case when this happens, I reached for my cell phone and the contact number from which I could retrieve pertinent information, but I soon learned that just because we didn’t know who we were looking for didn’t mean there wasn’t someone looking for us.   Not to mention, I had no cell service anyway… which would turn out to be a blessed, blessed thing.  So out of the bustling crowd of islanders and tightly situated vehicles emerged Jeff, the father of Peter Burke, whom had been my contact up to this point.    He reached out, shook my hand and said, “Hello!  I’m Jeff.  You must be Sara!”  And as he turned to Sarah Mae, he continued with a smile and slight chuckle, “And you must be the other Sarah!  Welcome to Isle au Haut!”  We had been found.

Jeff offered to help load our bags into the back of his old Isuzu Land Rover.  As the three of us began to walk toward his vehicle, there arose a clatter to our right.  We looked up, and without the slightest bit of uncertainty, shouted, “Moxie!”  For there was no mistaking this K-9 commotion.  Moxie was big.  Bigger than I imagined.  Partly due to the fluffy mane of semi-curled hair hanging from him like feathers on a poodle.  He was standing, or rather dancing, in the back of a little red Ford pickup, which I assumed belonged to Nancy’s husband, Bill.  Sue had gone over to say hello to Moxie, and though I was still able to identify her by the clothes she was wearing……….. from the shoulders up, she had been eclipsed by a wildly enthusiastic “hug” from Moxie.  Bill and Nancy’s crazy fur kid was now standing on his hind legs with his forepaws around Sue’s neck.  The scene was all too familiar to us, and by this time, we were laughing hysterically.  After Sue had received a proper greeting from Moxie, Sarah and I went over to say hello.  Moxie was a tad calmer this time, but not by much.  He tried to jump out of the truck once, and eventually attempted to give us each the same type of “ hug” he’d given Sue, but because we had left Jeff to do all the work loading our things, we bid our farewells to Moxie and rushed off to help him with the last of it.  

As I passed by the front of the Land Rover, I couldn’t help but notice the hood ornament, and it would be a safe bet neither could anyone else.  It was a wooden moose head made from 2x4’s… complete with a full rack of antlers.  I wasted no time telling Jeff how I admired his handy work as I grabbed the last liter of water and tossed it atop the heap in the back of the SUV.  Once we were all loaded up, Sarah called shotgun, and I jumped in the back with Jeff’s dog… an adorable little black lab mix.   I shut the door, and looked over at my seatmate.  He was looking right at me, tail wagging passionately, and I responded, “Good to meet you, too!” We reversed up the steep entrance to the dock and into the parking area.  As Jeff, stepped on the clutch to shift into 1st gear…  the whole vehicle shook and sputtered.  This seemed of no concern to Jeff so I figured I wouldn’t worry about it either.  As he gave the old Land Rover some throttle, it perked right up and carried us to the main island road where we turned left and headed into “town”. 

Jeff announced he was going to give us a tour.  We drove approximately one block when we arrived at the first stop…. A little shack down near the water called the Shore Shop.  “They just opened up this year.”  Jeff said.  “She sells wares from the islanders… a lot of the people on the island are artists and authors.  You can find some of their stuff in there.”  He continued, “Also, this is where you’ll find your lobster.  If you let them know how much you’ll be needing, you can stop back by around 4pm to pick it up.”   Good to know.

We proceeded roughly another half a block to the library….. also on the left side of the road and waterfront, where we received another very informative quip from Jeff, “This here is the library.  I just wanted to show ya in case you like hangin’ out at the library…… OH!  And they have volleyball on Thursdays!”   I refrained from asking how what he’d just said made any sense, and came to my own conclusion that they must be maximizing limited facilities by combining certain community resources.  Whatever the case, I like it.  There should ALWAYS be volleyball at the library.

We proceeded past the post office… a small, plain white building not much bigger than an outhouse.  “There is the post office on your left….”  Jeff said, pausing for the time it took to roll nearer to the general store, “and this is the general store.  It’s open a couple hours a day.  This is where you can get more water, food, etc. if you run out.”   And as we would find out later, when he said a couple hours a day, he meant it.  To be precise, 1pm-3m were business hours.  You snooze (or hike up and over a mountain)… you lose.

We drove a little further as we came to the fifth and final stop on the tour.   Rising from the road was a narrow boardwalk, leading to a beautiful, little white chapel with a steeple which seemed taller than the building itself.  It was breathtaking and so symbolic.   The boardwalk cut a clear path between the shadowy spruces and patches of lime green cascades.  Looking upward at the steeple as it seemed to puncture the blanket of blue sky above it, I waited in anticipation for liquid gold to render that tiny pinhole a gushing torrent.  This whole scene made all the sense in the world to me.  I don’t go to church much, but for some reason…. I really liked this one.   Probably because it didn't seem tainted by humans... like it was not constructed for money or power but for sanctuary.  As Jeff let off the brake and began to roll toward our next stop, he simply stated, “…and up there, that’s the church.”  I thought that was probably just the right amount of words.

The Isle au Haut town tour had taken us approximately 3.5 minutes from start to finish.  We turned around, and recounted all of our stops on our way back through town… which tore through another 30 seconds of our time.  Jeff took us to the cabin, and on the way told us he is the lighthouse keeper… or, at least, he owns the inn which was once the keeper’s house.  We would later learn the lighthouse has been deeded to the state (or something which is none of our business).    I pulled out a map I’d printed off the internet (of course I came prepared) , but he gave us a map he’d picked up at the rangers station, and explained the hiking trails. 

As Jeff gave us a play by play of each hiking trail on the island, we were riveted.  He sat at our little kitchen table literally acting out what it might be like for us to embark on the many adventures which lay ahead.   When Jeff left for home, it was almost 6pm, and though we were tempted to grab our packs and get started.... we decided instead to rest our bones and dream out loud about the amazing experiences awaiting us.

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The entire state of Maine is green, in more ways than one.  The various colors of the houses are inevitably in stark contrast to the chartreuse landscape upon which they are situated.  There are gardens the size of my townhome in Florida, and compost heaps to match.  As I sit here now, the occasional odor of the rotting compost weaves its way through the thick morning air and finds me, but it is of no concern.  I am happy to oblige in return for the solace and sheer beauty of even the most unoriginal parts of this island.   The sun rose early, and I rose with it…. But only just now has it come out from behind the clouds to greet me…as if before it would grace us with its presence today, it would first need proof that I am not a threat to one of its favorite places to shine.   Just above the tree line, and warm enough to begin to burn away the dampness of the morning, the sun and I have become fast friends.  And I’m getting the feeling, the finch-sized mosquitos do not harbor the same adulation as they disappeared quickly upon its arrival. 

Sarah is awake now, and after she consumes enough coffee to release her face from its typical morning scrunch, we will get dressed, go to the bike rack, and find a bike which functions well enough to carry us around the side of the island to Acadia National Park and the Duck Harbor Mountain trailhead.  Today is going to be a big day.

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